How unfortunate I am
हजूर ने कदम बोसी की इनायत की, नाचीज जूते सा ना हो सका”
हम आपके सन्मुख आए और हम आपके सन्मुख झुक भी ना पाए, ठीक तरह से प्रणाम भी नहीं कर सके
इतना अयोग्य है जीव
BEWILDERED, I INTROSPECT ON MY ILL FORTUNE OR MY INELIGIBILITY
LORD GRACED (इनायत) ME WITH A CHANCE TO KISS (बोसी) HIS FEET (कदम)
&
THIS IRREVERENTIAL BEING (ME) COULD NOT EVEN BE LIKE A SHOE
I CAME IN FRONT OF YOU & THIS LOWLY BEING (ME) COULD NOT EVEN BOW DOWN, COULD NOT EVEN JOIN MY HANDS IN PRAYER – HOW INCAPABLE & HOW INELIGIBLE A BEING IS
It is very difficult to satisfy the Supreme Personality of Godhead, but in my case, although I have satisfied the Supersoul of the whole universe, I have prayed only for useless things. My activities were exactly like treatment given to a person who is already dead. Just see how unfortunate I am, for in spite of meeting the Supreme Lord, who can cut one’s link with birth and death, I have prayed for the same conditions again.
Purport
Sometimes it so happens that a devotee engaged in the loving service of the Lord desires some material benefit in exchange for this service. This is not the proper way to discharge devotional service. Out of ignorance, of course, sometimes a devotee does so, but Dhruva Mahārāja regrets his personal behavior in this connection.
https://vedabase.io/en/library/sb/4/9/34/
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Chaitanya Mahāprabhu says, "My Lord, You are so merciful that in this age..." Why...? Not in this age; every age. "You are always in full potency in Your name. And I can associate with You simply by chanting Your holy name. But I am so unfortunate, I have no attraction for that." A simple thing, to chant the name. God has become so kind, "You simply chant My name." But I am so unfortunate, I have no attraction for that.
https://vedabase.io/en/library/transcripts/720813r1lon/
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So the life, they're missing the aim of life. Mandāḥ sumanda-matayaḥ. Why? Manda-bhāgyāḥ: they are unfortunate. So you take it for granted. We are trying, even our Kṛṣṇa consciousness mission, we are trying to awaken. Still, they are so unfortunate they cannot give up sense gratification. So unfortunate. Condemned, unfortunate. Repeatedly we are spending our gallons of blood, "Don't do this"; still they are doing. Cannot give up even sleeping. So condemned, Kali-yuga. Mandāḥ sumanda-matayaḥ.
https://vedabase.io/en/library/transcripts/730823bglon/
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Chaitanya Mahāprabhu says, etādṛśī tava kṛpā bhagavan mamāpi: "My dear Lord, although You are so much merciful upon me, still, I am so unfortunate." Etādṛśī tava kṛpā bhagavan mamāpi durdaivam īdṛśam, "I am so unfortunate," durdaivam īdṛśam ihājani na, "I could not be attached to chanting of Hare Kṛṣṇa mantra. Oh, I am so unfortunate." You see? The things have been made so easy, actually, but unfortunate class of men, they cannot take to it.
https://vedabase.io/en/library/transcripts/720823sbla/
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Uddhava lamented his own fortune also because although he knew Kṛṣṇa to be the Supreme Personality of Godhead, he could not properly use the opportunity to render devotional service to the Lord. He regretted everyone’s misfortune, including his own. The pure devotee of the Lord thinks himself most unfortunate. That is due to excessive love for the Lord and is one of the transcendental perceptions of viraha, the suffering of separation.
https://vedabase.io/en/library/sb/3/2/8/
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yad bhibheti svayaṁ bhayam - Fear personified is also afraid of Krishna and His names. Who are we, so we are very scared to come to Him. But we are so unfortunate that we don't realise the value of Holy Name and chant our rounds mechanically, without any feeling. When we take the name of Lord our sleeping spiritual nature is awakened. When we helplessly chant His names, we get liberated.
http://mahavishnugoswami.com/gr/2287
Standby link (in case youtube link does not work)
Srimad Bhagavatam 6.2.23 by HG Amarendra Prabhu, 12 Sep 2022 (online-video-cutter.com).mp4
https://youtu.be/UeZVfNGKifA?t=4819 1.20.19 till 1.21.21
